Before I became a christian.. I was pretty miserable. I didnt realize how unhappy I was until I recieved joy, TRUE joy! I thought that christians didnt know what the "real world" was all about! They didnt know what suffering was or struggling. I thought "here they are in there perfect little lives, they have No clue about drugs or alcohol.... they dont know what its like to REALLY go through some 'crap'!!"
When I became pregnant (out of wedlock), giving birth to a baby girl.. I still wasnt ready to get married! I had sat back and saw so much hurt and pain in mom and extended family go through so much abuse I was scared to get married! When I finally sat a date it was a 'rush-rush' thing... got married, my husband lost his job-us with a 6month old right before Christmas. He got a job only a couple wks after losing his job. The following May I wanted a divorce! I had to ask myself... where am I gonna work? who am I gonna stay with? How's this gonna affect our 'almost' one year old little girl? I realized that if the all these people that have been together 60 years can make it we can too!!
In June, at our daughters first birthday party someone we invited, invited us to their church!! We both knew we wanted better for our daughter and future children..We attended the following Sunday and have been attending ever since! I've learned the truth about God, not what people say but the true God.. How much He loves me and how much He wants us to succeed in everything we do. He only wants the best for us. We are His children, we have direct heir to the thrown. IF and ONLY IF we accept Him, submit to HIM. He's not forcing or manipulative! He's not gonna force anyone to do the right thing, He wants us to come to Him willingly. Just because we go to church, doesnt mean we dont live in the 'real world' or 'we dont know anything...' Christians (true christians) are some of the strongest people you'll ever meet... (or so it seems)! Like the Sunday school song 'Jesus Loves Me', "I am weak but He is strong.." thats the truth behind it all. We rely on the Holy Spirit for strength... That in itself should be a huge testimony for people in the midst of struggles we are still walking around wit a smile on our face! That right there, shows how mighty our God is... He delivers us, gives us strength in time of need, fills us wit love when we dont feel loved, comforts us when were sad, and even takes away the sadness and replaces it wit joy! (IF we allow Him too)
God doesnt need me to be God, He wants me 'cause He loves me! I am (and you are) His sons and daughters... We need Him just as we needed our parents and/or caregiver when we were young... He is SO, SO much more than what this world leads Him to be!! Thats the truth behind this Christian!
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