Beauty In The Eye of The Beholder?? (Testimony)

   I didn't necessarily grow up in what some would consider a "normal" home....(whatever normal is?!) I was raised by a single mom. The ONLY person I really looked up to criticized me for everything & I mean everything!!So,I was criticized a lot... everything I did or said, seemed to not be good enough... My mom worked quite a bit and I never felt she was there for like she should have been. I wanted to kill myself at the age of seven and attempted to by drinking cough syrup when no one was home.. and had several thoughts of wanting to slit my wrist...I didnt know why or what it was called (suicide) just "knew" I wasnt 'good enough' to be alive (ultimate lies of satan!)! Into my teenage years I was VERY insecure with absolutely NO self confidence. If a guy wasn't given me a second look or seemed "interested" than I was ugly. So, to me.. I was ugly all the time!
     After meeting my husband at age 16, becoming involved in church, having kids,learning and growing..(8 years later) I still struggle with self confidence and self worth. I know who I am in Christ but cant 'wrap' my mind around it... It's like it hasn't 'clicked' yet. So, I take it day by day.. waking up and looking in the mirror telling myself "I AM BEAUTIFUL!!" not because my husband or some other man or woman says or thinks so but because, I was created by Christ and Christ/Jesus/God/the Holy Spirit/Jehovah... doesn't make mistakes... He cant!!
     To every woman out there that may struggle with this.."Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised".(Prov. 31:30) This is a verse I live by... continually renewing my mind... We cant rely on feelings but of the truth! The truth is.. as I am, as YOU ARE, we are beautiful! For me, its constantly renewing my mind everyday with the word. I promise if you lack in confidence or self worth. Rely on the truth and I promise you... You will be a new lady/woman before you know it. Fight satan's lies ('you're ugly', 'not good enough', 'not as pretty as 'so n so') with the truth! It goes back to PROVERBS 31 read this day in and day out. Get this on the inside of you... I promise, you will overcome those trials and be looking in the mirror at a new woman! One of my favorite sayings, "KEEP YA HEAD UP!"